tell me why im waiting for so long he doesnt give a fuck about me

He was stealing glimpses while I was effortlessly being myself. I felt so hard to love.Īnd then someone fell in love with me when I wasn’t even looking. That doesn’t mean it’s ever easy to deal with me, and for a long time I thought that made me unlovable. It finally hit me that I desperately NEEDED to be alone to learn how to deal with myself before anyone else in the world would ever want to deal with me. I know you’ve heard that a million times, but I pinky promise it’s true. He won’t be what or who you expect and he won’t come when you expect him to. You’ll stop waiting and you’ll just start being.Īnd when you can finally just be, he will come. When you think you can’t, just wait one more day. We get to a point where we will take what we can get. Someone to cuddle with, someone to eat takeout with, and someone to just be with. I was complaining when I didn’t have someone, and when I did, it wasn’t healthy or the right timing or the right person – it never felt like love.īeing a teenager, being a 20-something, being 30 (the list goes on) and trying to find our “soulmate” is the object of the game, huh? It’s what we really long for at the end of every day. I thought I was being patient and waiting on the right guy, but I wasn’t being patient or waiting at all.

I feel like I spent years just longing for someone to love me. I wanted to be in love, but I really didn’t think there was any way I’d be so in love with someone who reciprocated all the same feelings. I never imagined myself saying that about anyone. My heart flutters every single time I catch him being so him. I’ll just watch my boyfriend taking notes in church or folding his laundry or just watching a movie – he never has any idea I’m stealing a glimpse and it makes him even more adorable. They have no idea anyone is looking at them and that’s what makes them all the more lovable because they’re totally unaware of your fascination – they’re just really being themselves? By Kaitlin Chappell Updated December 20, 2020ĭo you ever just look at someone, watch them while they’re doing such a simple task and just smile.

Tell me why im waiting for so long he doesnt give a fuck about me